"Anything can happen in life just make sure you make the best of it"
(Poetry, art, stories, my life -anything goes)
come a little closer to me
let the softness of my voice drift in to your ear
like a lullaby
but will you fall into my heart
after i tell you the secrets
the ones i want you to know
there are others
but you’ll find out soon enough
if you choose to stay.
i can read your mind
with the tips of my fingers
dangling from lap
on to your arm
and my ears fill with the sound of your heart beat
each word picking up the pace
Finally i am brought back to my happiness
shaking off the old dirt
i’ve grown use to the dark
but now my eyes will see light
i’m no longer holding on to the past
but to forget it
will turn my futures course into the blackest of holes
breathing in the new air
my lungs will fill with silk
and my once broken heart
will have no scars
and my eyes shall once again hold light
just think about it now
its probaly kiling you inside
leading you to places you said you’ll never go
but thats a lie
you’ve been there before
and now that you returned
who knows if you’ll ever make it out
When all else fails try a different method
maybe your going about this all wrong
maybe those walls don’t hold tragedy
maybe behind that door
that door you’ve been dreading to touch the knob of
is your happiness
what you always wanted
but your so scared,
so alone that even though you hate it
you’ve grown use to it
as so you sit and ponder
wishing you had life
and you will if you just open the door
but you refuse
and so darkness clouds you.
"Smile with you eyes".
Smiling with your eyes is hard to do
when your eyes are the window to your soul
and your soul is darkened
not the kind of dark as in evil
but the kind of dark as in sad
But in someway to have a sad soul is evil,
but lets not get them mixed up.
As the Photograph is taken
a piece of me relaxes.
Each flash of light
taken me back to my reoccurring dreams.
I try to shake it off and pose in a different way,
but its harder than it looks.
Focus, Natalia, Focus.
Another glare of light,
it gets stronger.
“Just One More…”
And it all turns……….black
I love the way you look at me
The way You touch me
And how tightly you hold me
Its like you never want to let me go
And honestly if I could see you
If i coud touch you
If i could taste your lips
My heart is yours
the only thing is I havent met you yet
in my chest cavity…….. my heart has been in lots of places where it shouldn’t of but i gained a lot from it and honestly i feel as though its where it should be for now but hopefully soon to be held by another lover.
Some day some where i’ll see you,
you’ll be sitting there either reading or writing
and i will be enjoying a cup of coffee for the first time in weeks.
I’ll be sitting across from you
probably doing the same as you.
You’ll take a break
from what ever your you where doing
and see me pretending to be busy,
but actually i’ll be thinking,
wishing i had someone to enjoy the time with.
You’ll think about how attractive i am,
rather or not im worth the time
and come to some conclusion
regarding the male philosophy
then go back to what you where doing before hand
forgetting about me.
Coming back to reality
i’ll glance over at you
taking you in
just enough to make me wish i had a relationship.
My journal i carry will find itself opened
filling itself with ink forming words
absorbing the emotions and frustration i carry.
When i’m finished I’ll sigh
and put away whatever i was working on before hand
along with the journal.
My table will be clared
except for that cup of coffee.
I’ll look once again at you
thinking i had mind control
wishing you would come talk to me,
but of course it wouldn’t work
and ill take a sit of the semi-chilled coffee,
sigh again and slowly put on my coat
hoping you’ll hear and see the commotion.
Maybe you will hear my chair move,
and even see me put on my coat
but one thing is for sure
you would let me,
no, the one who could possibly be that Some One
walk pass you and out the door.